Confuse, confuse and confuse what is call LOVE...

  This few day I feel very tired, sometime i really dont know what should I do. Since my mum pass away , life to me is nothing . I dont have motivation to move on , till now i still so sad and cannot believe that my dearest Mum already leave me in such a suck world ....

  Beside this sad thing i really regret that together with this person . Sometime i really feel like give up everything and leave all of them. I already very tired and dont want to bother so much . To me now all is no meaning , my parent leave this family to me and i really feel all this is my burden. All this is not i want but yet all the leave it to me .Why always me ??

  You know now then i know that what Aunty Eng told me is right , all this is from :Cause and effect " . I keep telling myself all this is because my previous life mess up ppl and do this to them that why this life they do back to me . I hope i can finish return all this to them and i can leave all this and continue my life .

  Shall i leave him ? I really cannot stand him any more . I feel like dying soon, all the things just come to me till i cannot breave any more. Can  somebody help me ? Why want to find a understanding and loving person so difficult ? In this world really got such a good man ?? I really have no idea.

  Haiz ...While life still have to go on and i hope all the bad thing will go aways from me .

两个人的关系＂信任＂到底重要吗？

我真的很不明白为什么就不能给一些私人空间彼此呢？为什么你做什么都拿我们彼此之间来做借口呢？
在这一段关系里面没有＂信任＂这两个字吗？而什么要害我存在一个＂为难＂的局面？你做这些事情时有站在我的角度想一想吗？为什么总是要我站在你那边呢？
其实我有很多东西都不高兴可是我没有讲，你以为这一切都那么理说当然的吗？
当你告诉我＂你母亲问你我是谁， 我真的想不到你会说我是柜台服务员时＂ 你知道我有多么伤心吗？ 这一切一切能够告诉谁谁又能和我分担呢？
我真的不知道我们真的应该走下去吗？ 我们会有幸福可言吗？

老天啊可以给我一些指示吗， 我真的很迷茫。