08/12/2011**Bad day for me ***

Yesterday was a bad day for me . I have in relation with Adam almost three month and we really like each other so much . Some of the moment i really got a feeling may be we can go till marriage ...

But too bad something is happen , we break off on yesterday . Actually because of him i have been try to change myself and starting to caring people , but he still feel no enough ...

He is telling me that he was feel that i am not 100% intrested to him ..I really dont know how to show him 100% instrested , we are only starting our relationship 3 month what do you expect me can do ? As i already told you so many time you must trust me and i will behave my self as your girl friend . Why you cannot see i actually working hard on this ?

You said you do not understand me , what do you means not understand ? I am very difficult to understand meh ? I have been tried to question ourself  for same question , but all of my friend around me tell me that answer is " NO" i am not . The only conclusion i can said is may be our culture diffrent but i really love you...

Why you give up so easly ? If me not that important to you or actually you not love me ? I dont believe that you not love me because the action you showed me is you are so care of me and love me . You are really treat me as your baby and i happy for that . Even though sometime you always nag at me but i still feel happy ..

When i call you "darling " that time can feel you are enjoy it . I really very miss that time call u " darling , darling darling " ..But everything already pass and we cannot turning back any more . Since you give up and you try to avoid me ? Why you will do that to me ? I though you are love me so much and why you will treat me in this way  ?

I understand that you do not listen my sound because you scare you cannot let go ..Why like that ? ??Anyway since you alraedy decided there are nothing i can work on this matter. 

But the only thing i can told you that i really love you and hope you can found another gal who more suitable to you and i will miss you forever . All the good thing you have done for me i will remember in my heart..

Goodbye my darling "Adam Choi" ....